I'm sick and tired of all this bullshit.

An oft-used line. And I know why. Even before I knew what I was saying, even before I knew how many actors had hissed those lines, I was thinking it. It's just so natural.

But I am. I am sick and tired of all this bullshit.

I will never know what was exchanged between my father and Sandra-jie yesterday, when she called to speak to him about the guitar. Not at least till Sunday.

But I'm sick and tired of being chained to my parents' ideals about my life. What I should and should not do. What I can and can not do. I don't care what they think. I am only thankful that they had given me an opportunity by enrolling me in such an expensive course. But they have no right to dictating how the hell I should do my work and when I should do it. Especially since they have admitted to obviously not knowing the system as well as I do. It's no use insisting that you know what is best for me. As you have said so yourself, you don't. You fucking well don't, so don't try to act like you do. Because in any case you make bad actors.

First the guitar, then I get the flu, then all this old quarrels start surfacing and weighing me down. I am just sick and tired. Physically sick and mentally tired. It took me the whole day to recount the previous post. And I forgot to mention that I had unknowingly stringed my guitar in a left-hand order until it was far too late. That is totally fucked up. If anything I shall have to spend more money on new strings. Again. And new pegs too.

I'm so very sick and tired of all this bullshit. Can't a month run perfectly past my life without screwing it up for me?

orchestrated by Renhao at 7:39:00 pm
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