It's been a long time since I blogged. This first week of holidays has been one crazy rollercoaster. I'll put the earlier entries in... You know. As if I did it right after that event... But anyway. Later.
I do think it is lack of activity that creates lapses of low self-esteem. I've been so happy in this course. And now I feel like... A retard? Ok no I already... Anyway. The last time I felt it was at the beginning of the year. With no job... Crappy results. In fact it still seems that everyone's doing better than me. Everyone can carry himself with pride and say this is what I worked for for 17 years of my life. What do I have?
Hell. I'm at it again. What makes everyone else special? I dunno. I said so? Sue me.
I am what I want myself to be. And I want to be in the media. I want to be confident of myself. It feels like my head has turned into powder and would crumble to bits anytime now. I live on lavish wild enjoyment. Jap lunch with Hans and Big Ben and Sining and Graham... pool... A stayover at Ben's... what the hell. Let's do this forever shall we? Ohhh right. Everyone else has their own life.
I guess I expect alot from my friends. I expect them to be there for me when I need it, because I know I will be there if ever they need it. I expect them to stand by me, because I would do it. I expect them to be ready to help me to the best of their abilities, because I would do the same. I expect alot from my friends, so perhaps I get a little shirty with them (you) at times, because you have your own ideas of how friends should be. Heck I expect friends to have a hug ready. But er... Let's blame society for that shall we... Now moving right along...
You've probably come back from the toilet for the third time now. But I don't care.
Kidding.
You've probably come back from the toilet for the third time now. But I'll close with this. I thought I would miss my secondary school friends the most. Hey it was VS after all. We had wonderful times together. We fought our way against co-ed... somewhat together. I still cherish those times. But no. The times I will miss most are the times we shared these two semesters at SIM. Those who have seen the course schedule will know that BAC and BScBA will see less and less of each other with each semester. During the last semester we wouldn't even see each other at all in class. I just hope the time we've had, and the one or two more semesters we have with each other, will create strong enough bonds, ya?
I never said this in VS. Never thought I would.
I'll miss y'all.
orchestrated by Renhao at 11:29:00 pm
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Blog page clean-up scheduled after this week's exams are over.
Well there's only one reason why I don't keep my loyal fanbase entertained.
Too busy la. Sheesh.
Today everyone was being uber random, presumably due to exam stress. Hans was like singing some weird song like he was drunk and depressed (probably the chicken rice soup). And then out of nowhere he started singing 'Numa numa eh, numa numa chao neh neh...'. I forgot why, but I showed the L sign to KJ, then he signed back a gun sign. Then I was like what??? And here comes Hans who says, 'Neh... You show him big man small dick, he show you small man big dick lor.' And that earned him stares... Then when Ben shot a question at KJ he did some nigger thing with the gun signs... Like for no reason. Later we were talking about it (though come to think of it, why the fuck were we talking about men and dicks when we were supposed to be studying) and then Graham said 'Eh but isn't it true.' Then Hans was like, no, like, who said? Then Graham plunged on in his random world, 'Eh but I thought it was like the smallest had like the super big ones.' which totally cracked us up. Then later we were talking about prejudice, then Ben said 'Let's play foozball' and stood up. And Kaiyan immediately jumped up and said 'OK let's go!' then Ben immediately said 'Uh nah no no no...'.
Sigh. We would have been laughing more if not for exams after that. I didn't even play pool today. Nor foozball. Sucky sucky sucky sucky...
MATHS!!!
Oh yeah I met Gaylene on the way down from the lounge going to English, and she said, 'Oh I read your paper...' Then I was like, 'Was it good?' And she was 'Oh yeah, totally!'
I hope she didn't mix Ben and me up. Because I just remembered not long before I met her that I forgot to change the in-text citations to MLA style. Sucky sucky sucky sucky... ...
But hey if it's good, who's complaining? Ahaha. But then if Ryan could get a high grade, I should be quite safe lar I think.
orchestrated by Renhao at 5:41:00 pm
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